wow another update

 I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands

I thought you said forever
Over and over
The sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion

These thoughts run through my head
Over and over
Complaints of violins become my only friends

yeah its like that. but hey its not all bad i guess i dont have calculus I class today and i have my final exam on thursday and if my predictions are correct i only need 80 out of 150 points to get a C in the class but who knows the prof is a real air-head.

well things have been going ok i guess i just realize that i am a really selfish person and that i am losing friends. which means i am going to become lonely. which means i am going to do a lot of things by myself.

i also cant wait to go back to school and get this summer over with. i thought it would actually be a really great summer but it hasnt. i think i would rather go to school all year and get the month of july off. that sounds better if u ask me.

i have just developed a head ache wonderful. i am starting to give up on a lot of things. but then there is a part of me that just wants to get so motivated and stuff.  hmmmm. i have really been lacking on the updates cause i have 56k or 56gay to some others so i just update at TRI-C when i dont have class.

i have just been reading up on peoples livejournals and xangas and all the other web blogs out there that i know of. i am also going to look up mp3 players, digital cameras, and how to flick open a switchblade cause i want one.

i reserved dungeon seige II and that is coming out soon. it will be the first pc game i have bought since half life 2. wow that is a long time ago. i also want new ram and a new video card for my computer but i have to wait till christmas or until i gather up the money. i have 300 dollars laying around right now but 100 dollars is going in the bank and 200 dollars is for my gf in case she cant make her payment for school ill let her borrow it and pay me back whenever she gets a chance in whatever amount. although she is being really stuborn about taking it. grrrr.

i get paid this week which is a very good thing. i need to buy a few things before i go back to school. like a small safe. 2 key locks so no one will steal my movies or software from my cd-books like last year. DSII i need to buy. a new poolstick. and a few other things.

well that is about it. i dont really have anything on my mind either. which is surprising after last night. might update one more time before i go back to school. im moving in august 19th so if i dont u only have like 20 days or so before i do continual updates.